2.10.09


This morning I had oats with layered banana, inspired by the lovely Eliza.
:)
Oats, cooked in water, with layers of banana, and pinches of cinnamon and brown sugar.

It was yummy, and started my day off well. Today will probably be quite busy, because tonight is my grandma's 60th birthday party, so today I'm helping her get ready for it, buying stuff, etc. That's why I decided to blog this morning, because I probably won't get any other time throughout the day.

Ooh, something exciting that I realised today:
In 24 days (pretty much), it will be my 18th birthday.
[26th October]
I'm so excited!! It's come so quickly, I can't believe that I'm actually going to be eighteen soon. In a way, I almost don't want to be, I'm kind of reluctant to leave childhood behind. Everything in childhood is safe to me, so it will be a big step to leave it all, and become an "adult".

I'm wearing a new dress tonight, and for some reason that freaks me out. I'm seeing lots of people I haven't seen since July, and I'm worried about the comments they'll make. I hate when people comment on my body, it makes me feel so self-conscious, I hate it. I almost just want to wear my baggy jumper and pyjama pants, I hate that in this dress I will be so visible, that my body will be so obvious.

Well, anyway, sorry for leaving that on a bad note.
I hope you have a lovely day.
x

8 comments:

  1. love your oats :) banana and oatmeal are made for each other ;) great start to the day girly!

    good luck at the party in ur dress, i can assure you, you will look amazing! i always worry about comments, no matter what weight i am at, but just sometimes ill say 'dont comment on my look..thanks!" lol..

    xo
    maya

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  2. love your layered banana oatmeal ;) you are too cute!
    dont worry lovie about comments about how you look, you are beautiful, and no matter what weight you are at ever people always make comments, good or bad, ED just takes the good ones as bad, but like maya said i also tell people please dont tell me i look better or good or healthy or w/e, Eating disorders are so stupid to take a lovely comment and take it as if we look bad :/
    stay strong girly... and happy almost b-day in 25 days!! :)

    xo
    Eliza

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  3. I love your breakfast. Oats and banana are so perfecto for each other. You will look absolutely gorgeous in that dress (not like omg she gained weight gorgeous.....) but like, wow she's so beautiful because she just is. It doesn't matter your weight, like Maya and Eliza said, people just make comments, and ED makes compliments into insults. Just walk in there feeling confident, and you can let people know that you don't want people to comment on your body and stuff. :-)

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  4. wow, i feel so happy to find a fellow Melbourne girl.
    do not worry about the dress, you will shine in all your lovely glory because your smile will light up the room. stay confident and strong

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  5. OATS!!!!!!!!!!!!! Welcome to my world >)

    When I was 17 and about to go off to college as an "adult", I was pretty scared too. How could I just suddenly leave everything I'd known behind? But you're not alone, and you learn it's just one day after the next. I'm still here two years later, am I not? ;) There is so much to look forward to when you let go of the fear and embrace each day as it comes.

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  6. I'm turning 25 in 6 weeks and I still don't feel like an adult! And happy birthday to your Grandma. As for your dress nerves, my advice is to accept anything that anybody says to you, good or bad, with a smile and a "thanks" and then change the subject or leave them!

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  7. I'm almost 28 and I don't feel like an adult either! In fact my mother, who is 60, says she is still waiting to feel like she has fuly 'grown up'. Is this comforting on concerning, I don't know. I guess it is just a journey!

    I am sure you are going to look gorgeous in your dress, wear it with pride! Easier said than done I know - I wore new shorts to the gym today and then fretted over what people were thinking about my legs! Not that anyone probably thought anything about them. Don't let people get you down, you will be beautiful.

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  8. Oats and banana are a sickeningly perfect combination.
    You are going to look beautiful in that dress, hon! I know it is hard but try to embrace yourself, don't let people get you down.

    <3

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